This is a blog so I might as well write about my life.
First, I committed to North Carolina State University a few days ago! Sure, I may not be going to California like I wanted but Raleigh is cool and I’m just happy to be getting out of Florida. I still hope to move to California in the near future but I’m not ready yet. After socializing via facebook, I was able to find a roommate and befriend some others, which eased a lot of my concerns of not fitting in. I’m actually excited to start college!
But as for right now, I’m still in high school and my current grade in math is awful. I feel like I get the material but then I blank out on tests. I have a test tomorrow that I need to get a 100% or more on. I’m scared because I don’t want to end up with a D for the semester and end up with my NC State acceptance rescinded.
I have to decide where I’m going to college in just over a week and I’m scared as hell. It’s between NC State or SBCC. There are pros and cons to each. SBCC is the more exciting option but NC State is the most traditional. The problem is that I’m not 100 percent sure what I want to study. Not even 40 percent. I loved Santa Barbara when I visited and I want to follow my California dreams that I’ve had since Elementary school but I’m afraid that I’m not ready. Raleigh was really nice when I went but I only spent a few hours there and I’m not sure if I can see myself living there for school. Coming from out of state, I’m afraid I’ll have a hard time connecting with other students at both schools. Also, I haven’t found any potential roommates yet for NCSU, which is kind of scaring me. What if I don’t get along with my randomly assigned roommate? On the NC State FB page a lot of kids said they were looking for strong Christians as their roommates and while I’m tolerant of other people’s religions I feel like I may feel like an outcast because I’m not a “Strong Christian”.
I’m already indecisive enough as it is so a future defining decision like this is really stressing me out!